You’re all I think about and I just wanna talk to you all the time. This is how I know I’m starting to develop feelings for you. I’m starting to get attached and clingy. I don’t want that. I’m going to have to push you away.
im not only overwelmed with the fact that i have been working so much and now that i have a second job as a sunday school teacher its making me super nervous to be teaching the little munchkins. and babysitting all the time. and i still dont have enough money to support myself. so much at me at once and i cant even take a break for spring break this coming up week. ugh
So I have been talking to this guy and he has a 6 year old son. And I have tried to keep myself out of his life but his dad keeps on insisting that it’s ok for me to be in his life and he just put him on the phone to talk to me and he told me it’s ok for me to come over and hang out with his daddy and he was just so presh I can’t stop smiling. Not really sure what I’m getting myself into but I hope it’s not going to backfire on me.
Idk why tonight was the night for three guys that I have talked to in the past that I care a lot about… to tell me that they are either moving away really soon or joining the army. All tonight. Am I supposed to feel something. Because I do. I almost feel hurt. And scared. The army is such a scary place and the fact that both of you want to join or go back because you think your life is just so miserable is beyond me. People take their lives for granted and don’t appreciate anything around them. Moving doesn’t always change that but I guess you can’t learn if you don’t experience.